Call it what you want... unplugging, deactivating, disconnecting - all in the name of being more present and REconnecting in other ways.  Stepping back.  I'm eagerly looking forward to stepping back, myself.  This article sums it up beautifully.


Today, removing the facebook app from my (deactivated) iphone.  I've kept an old iphone as a wi-fi toy.  I use it for FB messenger, Voxer, Instagram.  I get sucked in negatively to the FB app every day and zone out and waste the time away.  Some day, I hope to deactivate my entire FB account. 

As I learn and explore the possibility of a "microsanctuary" for chickens, facebook groups sure do come in handy.  I know there are other ways though.  Just working up the courage to take that step back, step out, step into the present.

Life is such a process.  So bumpy and interesting and eye opening.  With eyes open, we can see so much.

Below, a beautiful image of a family of five, welcoming their third perfect child into their world, their arms, their home. 

and another:

The flaky newborn baby skin, those bright, alert eyes, the wrinkles around the wrists and the fresh perspective taking it all in.  This is what bringing a baby girl home and loving her and sleepless nights look like: pure love and utter beauty.  I'm honored to photograph such beauty in a growing family and new baby.

Don't wait.

I've heard a lot lately about waiting.  Waiting until spring.  Waiting until you shed a few pounds. Waiting until the snow melts.  Waiting until there's more snow. Waiting until you get your roots touched up.  Waiting until her braces come off.  Waiting until you get coordinated outfits.  Waiting for whatever.  I implore you to not wait.  Capture the now, with it's messy, funny, endearing, imperfect things.  The extra bits, the imperfect life that we live.  It is the now, and it need not be perfect on the outside but it always is perfect on the inside.  It's so worth it.

I had an opportunity today to have a photo taken with my sweet 4th boy.  Just him & me.  Less than one month until he turns four.  I have dozens of little moments like this captured so beautifully in front of a backdrop with my oldest two boys but this guy... not so much.  It wasn't planned, I wasn't "ready."  (He always looks adorable though, I admit it.)  But I took that opportunity and am glad I did.  It doesn't need to be perfect to be the perfect little moment right now.

truth, peace & different paths

This has been going around facebook lately, from this page...

"My friend's mom has eaten healthy all her life. Never ever consumed alcohol or any "bad" food, exercised every day, very limber, very active, took all supplements suggested by her doctor, never went in the sun without sunscreen and when she did it was for as short a period as possible- so pretty much she protected her health with the utmost that anyone could. She is now 76 and has skin cancer, bone marrow cancer and extreme osteoporosis.
My friend's father eats bacon on top of bacon, butter on top of butter, fat on top of fat, never and I mean never exercised, was out in the sun burnt to a crisp every summer, he basically took the approach to live life to his fullest and not as others suggest. He is 81 and the doctors says his health is that of a young person.
People you cannot hide from your poison. It's out there and it will find you so in the words of my friend's still living mother: " if I would have known my life would end this way I would have lived it more to the fullest enjoying everything I was told not to!"
None of us are getting out of here alive, so please stop treating yourself like an after thought. Eat the delicious food. Walk in the sunshine. Jump in the ocean. Say the truth that you’re carrying in your heart like hidden treasure. Be silly. Be kind. Be weird. There’s no time for anything else."

It's interesting to read something that is so black or white, so all or nothing.  As if we can not make healthy, safe choices that nourish our body and soul AND eat the delicious food, walk in the sunshine, jump in the ocean, speak the truth, be silly, kind, wild and weird.  As if we can't be and do all of those wonderful things AND exercise daily, practice yoga, nourish our skin, choose organic. 

Of course I read that and I say YES!  I say YES loudly to all of those things, because as it says, "there's no time for anything else," right? But then I also roll out my yoga mat every damn day and practice until my heart is content.  Does that make me less apt to enjoy the freeing feeling of jumping in the ocean and eating the bacon & butter &  doing whatever I please?  Certainly not.  That's the magic of both, of moderation, of doing what feels right, whether it is wild and careless or safe and nourishing.  It is for each of us to figure out for ourselves.

When I started realizing the toxins I was putting on my skin every day and made a choice to change, it didn't take away from how much fun I am or how fully I live life every day.  It actually brought me more joy to take care of myself.  It doesn't have to be one or the other.  It can be BOTH and the BOTH can be really darn good. 

May we all see the truth in what is right for us, may we take on little bits of different ways to improve our life.  Maybe that will mean totally opposite things.  Maybe I should eat more organic and less sugar.  Maybe I need not be able to balance on my hands for a minute, or maybe that really does matter.  None of us can know what really matters in the big picture.  I do what I do for the joy of TODAY.  Not trying to earn a longer life, not trying to earn the ability to be a yoga teacher at 97 or outrun cancer or beat the odds.  I simply do what I do today because it feels good today.  My choices today nourish my body and spirit and my connection with God, just for today.  If I do happen to have a lovely quality of life until I'm 104, great, but that can't be the goal- it doesn't make sense that way for me.  Maybe it does to you, and that's fabulous, because what feels right to you can be different than what feels right to me. 

That is what I hope to carry with me, to share, to spread, to meditate on- acceptance of everyone's journey looking like their own.  Embracing the differences, the paths, but finding our own destinations that lead to the truth... I do know the truth is found in and with joy- that peace brings the truth and the truth brings peace.  All that we grasp for and work towards is mostly a matter of getting there and finding that truth and peace. 


Yoga teacher training books arrived today!

It would make sense that the day I'm finishing up one little project (this website!) I receive the first books for my yoga teacher training!  Jump from one big thing to the next without time for a breath in between.  Or without time for a hot minute in between, as I'd say in real life.  :) 

My hope is to consolidate all my little (BIG!) passions, offerings, ideas, etc., in one spot.  So I can direct friends to this one page instead of writing out different domain names for the various services that I offer.  Please enjoy, let me know if you find anything funny happening here, any spelling errors (late nights do not always lend themselves to correct grammar), etc.  Please sign up for the newsletter with your email address. 

In the mean time, I am going to be diving right into my new yoga books... good stuff in all directions.  Thankful.
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